3) Back to December...

Well i havent really written in a while...although not much has been going on...my life is extremely boring although i am cutting alot of the drama out of my life...im not dealing with anyones shit...and soon enough i will find out who my real friends are...school is almost over and i am all registered for next quarter...i will be going to school 6 days a week and i have 17 credit hours plus i will hopefully be working again so it will be insane... but it will be good for me to keep myself busy while i can...I miss tim alot...i got to see him for the first time in 2 weeks yesterday and i must say it was awesome :) i wish he was still here i sercretly wish he would come home but i know hes gotta do whats best for him and right now that means living 2000 miles away :( although last night he gave me the surprise of my life...he told he loved me yesterday....omg i cried so much....i never expected him to say that to me...i never felt like i was good enough for me...hopefully it was him who said it lol with my luck it could have been one of his friend messing around with his phone....but if it was him then i am seriously the happiest person in the world...because the person i love so much loves me back... <3 girls always fear that guys never mean it when they say it and are only saying it because thats what the girl wants to hear...but in this case if it was in fact tim who said it then i really dont think that would be the case cause typically a guy would say it when he was still around to make the girl happy while he was here....not when they can start a completely new life thousands of miles away without you...but he said it after he moved...so i would think that means he truly does love me...right? i hope so cause i really do love him more than any person ive ever loved before...no ones ever made me feel like he has and it took me fucking up really bad to realize that and he was willing to forgive me and start over...and he will never no how much i truly appreciate that...i miss him alot...OH! and he sent me the prettiest flowers for valentines day js :) they are gorgeous!!! but yeah anywho last night was a good night tim told me he loved me and i got a whole bunch of cute new clothes... i cant wait to get my job back to i can get more lol today was pretty boring...went to lunch with my parents and then went and hung out with holly for a little bit came home watched some tv and did a crap ton of laundry oh and did i mention megan might be coming home for a little bit in two weeks!! i cannot wait! but yeah im gonna go attempt to clean my room and probably go to the coffee house :) so byes!