2) I'll Always Remember You

So it's been two days since I've written so lets try and catch up shall we...

February 4th marked the one  year anniversary of my Uncle Kevin's death...that was one of the hardest days I've ever had to deal with and it really hasn't gotten any easier...to me it seems like it never happened it feels like i  just saw him yesterday and that any moment now he will walk through the door with a McDonald's coffee cup like he usually did...I don't think it will ever seem real to me and if he ever did just show up at my house it wouldn't surprise me all i would say is "i knew you didn't die" and then everything would go back to normal... normal is seeming less and less now a days...this year was supposed to be easier and it really hasn't been much better...again i lose someone i love...not in the same way...but still losing someone in any way is never easier and there is a lot of other things going on in my life that typically i would need my uncles love and support on and he's not here...thank god my mom is so awesome and has been helping me out so much...i don't know what i would do without her...so yesterday needless to say was a horrible and suckish day with my uncles anniversary and i am still really bummed about tim leaving...it sucks so much and its only been a couple days and i already wanna see him :( i talked to him a little bit but not nearly as much as i'd like to so i didn't do a thing i pretty much just bummed around all day got jimmy john's for lunch and then watched an extremely strange movie with my sister and her boyfriend then i went to sleep...im still not sleeping to well but i did have a pretty funny/weird dream...i like when i have good dreams :) as for today... today wasn't much better then yesterday aha i really need to find a life...i get so bored i got up today and watched some tv with my dad like i do pretty much every sunday ate lunch took a shower and went to the mall with my mom to return the really awesome but really crappy purse i got for Christmas and i got some new shoes :) so this week should be like Christmas....new phone new shoes and a package from my sister lisa :) after the mall i went shopping with my mom just to get out of the house which is really lame but w.e its something to do got home and soon after we had dinner...after dinner i decided to take a bath which was really nice...relaxed me a little bit but i've been going to bed early so im tired now but being as i havent really been sleeping i'm trying to stay up later in hopes that that will make me sleep more...i did talk to tim a little bit today :):) he seems be be loving LA already although you all know that my fingers are crossed that he comes home...i did mention something to him about me moving there...but i think he thinks i was kidding... maybe he'll decide that he cares about me as much as i care about him and want me to be there and he'll ask me to move there...thats the one thing i want most right now is for him to just tell me he wants me and wants to be with me...my heart would melt...but enough of him on another note today was super bowl and my home away from home won!! Packers! now im not saying that i am a fan but of the two teams that were playing i was cheering for them :) as for now i'm watching cupcake wars and about to go get my homework done cause despite the snowstorm its back to school tomorrow :( so i'm gonna go get on that im sure i will be writing again very soon :) goodnight <3